Life after Upsr.

Hi. I know not many people read my blog but what the heck, I'm bored. So um, hi again? o.e Its the fourth of November and there are precisely 3 more days until Upsr results (i know right). So, what did I  actually do after Upsr? Wasting time. Yepp thats pretty much it. Oh and stupid childish fight between friends..(?)

 Seriously can't wait to leave Zainab (1)!! Not that I am that excited to leave that school but yooo no more bitchezzzzzz and dramassssss B-). So, hope for the best, 5A InsyaAllah <3 p="p">

Stupid shit.

Everything went so stupid. Siblings just got back from London. without me. yes.  And I just hate it when Ya cried over stupid thing.

Did she know what I've been through for 2 bloody fucking weeks? Everyday i woke up and have to listen to mama's nagging and baba asking about ya and ilhams condition at london. and all the stupid choral and drama thing. and of course, Upsr. 3 more fucking months. 3 months. and yeah, do visit my grave after ya told mama about her precious Maxis sim card thats missing 'because' of me. Although its not me but hell of course she'll not believe and she always say "YOURE THE ONLY ONE WHO LIVED IN THE HOUSE IT MUST BE YOU" so im like yeah whatever plus im used to tok and mamas nags. Ah life.

UPSR crap.

Hi, again. Havent been blogging since ever. Hmm. Well its a boring day and tomorrow is the first of April. How time flies :(

Mssm just passed few weeks ago, it was awesome, as expected. You know that feeling, when you're with your friends and you just enjoy the moments and not thinking about school, homeworks, problems and such. It has been the best part in 2012, for now.

Idk, we've reached quarter finals for the first time. And yes its my last year of being under12 girls :( But it was indeed the best trip ever.

But when I came to school again after 1 month, my life is normal again. Go to school until 5 and back home wasting time by listening to 1D music and dinner and pretending to be nice infrint of baba and mama then study homeworks. Everyday.

Went to KbMall with Mama and Ya to buy some stationeries. And just knew that Ya and Ilhams going to London for.. nothing. Of course they're leaving me behind.

Its not fair lah. Parents using UPSR as the excuse i mean wth lah. Ilham webt to Africa for a week! And he got 3A 2B for his February test also! But why can he go?

Its because Im a troublemaker and if I go to London I'll cause trouble and shits. They never saw me study they only saw the part where I play the ipod the ipad the mac why cant they fucking look at me when im studying?

Whats so good about underestimating me and having sisters thats telling how childish I am, how im not being matured enough. Telling me to go get new friends and dgxihkf. I have a life too. Yes its funny for you only lah, think about others.

Whats the point of getting straight A's in study when you cant think about other people's feeling. Just go stay atLondon lah. Never come back to Malaysia, I dont need you guys neither.

2012

Hi there, happy new year.(altho its 20th January already) Sooo vas' happenin? ^.^ ... nothing actually.

Just like other year, 2012 is boring, but hey baru 20 hari kan! -.- Sooooooooo, long time no blog huh? Its because... HOMEWORKS. Okay tipu.

But 50% of it is true okkk. And I think I have changed.. bcause this uear I managed to finish all of my homeworks(hehe) It is sooo easy that it makes myself think "Why am I like that last year?-.-'"

Well because I realized that this year is one hell of a year bcause Upsr. I know i know you guys must say Upsr is easy asdfghjkl, but naa just shut up v^^

And Mssm is 1 months down and guess what? Im not playinn B-) haha because of.. something hehehehe ok bye. Have a good year guys! :-)

I can't.

Hi, again. Well the last post is for you guys and this one is for mine. Can you believe it? I mean, my year is next year, UPSR. I cant accept the fact that I'm gonna seat for Upsr next year. How fast, 2011 is just 1 month until its over. The truth is, I want to turn back time to 2010. Best year ever, maybe? My school had already planned the tuition and all. Seriously I feel like I wanna die ~.~, and this year... I only went to Mssm for tennis competitions. This is so not me, I mean, last year, I only missed one competition.

 And, now, I've decided to not play tennis anymore. I cried. I cried. I cried. Like a bitch ^~^. Why? Because I've play tennis for about 6 years? Yeah its sad. And I cant meet my friends anymore. They're my true friends. And I cant meet Nurin and Putri anymore :/. Its a one hell of a decision. I can't be bitchy anymore(hehe). But the great thing is, when I said to Yo I quit playing tennis, he said he'll miss me and all. I know right, the guy who always bully me haha and hearts; Four word : I love them :')

 And by that I knew, we need changes in life. No matter how much we love them. Like death. I've always wanted to die when my mum scolded me. But when I read Aida's post, I'll never do that again.

 Hope you guys have a great happy year. God bless xx.

That one post.

Hi guys. Sorry for not posting for so long, but can you guys help me by reading this post? It will be worth it.  My friend Aida, wrote this on her blog and asked me to post it as well. Aida's mom's friend came to her house last night and she brought her mother too. They had dinner and Aida's mom and her friend left Aida and the old lady alone at the dinner table. All fo sudden, the old lady started a conversation. Guys, read well if you love your mother :) :

"Aida sayang , you know if someone checks on you, and cares about you, that person truly loves you. That person wouldn't want you to go . That person loves you more than anything you can imagine"

I probably know what you're thinking about right now. I thought the same too. She keeps on talking, I soon realize she was talking about my mother. She's been observing me. I mean she observes the way I react whenever my mother scolds me or something. What I do is I roll my eyes and probably whisper some swear words behind my mom. Then that old lady told me this ...

"... I know you wont understand this, but you'll get it when you're a little bit older. You'll understand what your mother has to go through to raise you and how she feels when you disappoint her..."

I didn't say a word. Then she begins to speak again ,

"My mother passed away on 1984 . When she left, I felt half of me is gone as well. Once a person returns to Allah , they'll never come back. I felt numb. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. I couldn't stop thinking about her since then. I felt really sorry. I've disappoint her countless times. By that I know it's too late to apologize to her. She died on 1984 Aida, can you count how long that has been?"

I answered 27 years.

"27 years is a really long time. But she still lives in me forever. I could still remember her. She's fresh in my mind. I've met many great people in 27 years. But non of them could replace my mother. She's irreplaceable . "

I kept quiet and she kept on talking.

"My mother punished me many times. I used to hate that about her. But when I got married , had children , I finally understand what she was going through . How much pain she had sacrifice . Giving birth isn't an easy thing to do. It's something between life and death. If you don't survive, you die . If you made it through alive , Alhamdulillah. During pregnancy , it's 9 months of hell. You get sick a lot. And whatever you eat , goes to the baby. "

She was exaggerating a lot. But I'm kinda interested to know more.

"I was my father's favorite child. I never knew why. He passed a way at 1994. 10 years after my mother passed away. I wasn't as sad as when my mother left though I was so close to him. "

Then she mentions about religion case.

"According to Rasulullah , we must respect our mother 3 times than our father. But that doesn't mean you must disobey your father. Islam has 2 life guides . The Al-Quran and the Hadis. I studied our kitab . I learnt all about this."

I look down. Trying to hold my tears. Yes. I felt like crying. She got up. Headed to the sink and cleaned her hands. Then she spoke again ,

"You may not know me . You may just see me as your mother's friend's mom. I'm new to your life and you're new to mine. My life isn't long. I'm old, weak. I could be taking my last breath any second now. But I want you to remember this forever. What I told you tonight comes straight from my heart. I'm being honest. Be thankful of your family. You're a lovely girl remember that."

Then Auntie Shereena came. And she interrupted ,

"Right now I need her more than she needs me"

If you were there you'd know. Auntie Shereena's mother was weak and old. She needs walking support. Every part of her body was aching all the time. And Auntie Shereena comes over and told me that she needs her mother more than her mother needs her ? That's something to learn from.

They had to go home. It was late. My mom walked them outside. I said nothing and ran up to my room.

My point is be thankful for what you have. I can't even remember the last time I told my mom that I love her. Seriously. It's always odd. Like the phrase 'syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu' doesn't that explains everything ? In my opinion you should bookmark this blog post/ page or whatever. So whenever you lost love in your mother, I want you to take your time and read this all over again. I'm sorry if I had wasted your time. I needed to blog about this. A random old lady who recently came to my life and changed it. From now on , she'll be in my prayers. Only god knows how wonderful she is. I hope she'll live longer.

21102011

21/10/11... that date... it changed my life. it truly change my life.. into a teenager? lulz why am I being soo damn bloody dramatic here? .__.

 sooo, its 7th October niggahss and here I am tweeting, wait, I mean blogging :p. Ahha twitter is love love love ;-D, Facebook is.... soo boring now, with the new theme and all, what a wasted crap, sigh.  so, Sks is in 2 days and I just read Penulisan and Science since I'm not good at those two bloody subjects.

  But InsyaAllah I'll try my best :), I'm proud of myself right now because every Thursday during Maghrib, I never  missed Yaa'Sin, Alhamdullillah :'). ANDD goodluck to Ya who's sitting fr Pmr, and this monday would be the last day for Pmr, and the worst thing that could ever happen is...? her freedom. Yay for you? Nay for me.

 But she's been struggling for 10 months, she deserve a break, maybe, ahahha. Ok just to make sure my blog is updated, bye then love x and hearts;